Zoe’s Tale PART III Chapter Twenty-Four

I entered the storage deck of the other Obin ship.So this is the sympathetic who has an entire feed to do her bidding, affirm the Consu time lag on that stop for me. It was the whole place on the Obin ship w hither(predicate) he would fit, I guessed.I smiled in shock of myself.You laugh at me, the Consu give tongue to. It spoke pure(a) English, and in a light, gentle voice, which was eldritch considering how more(prenominal) than it looked like a hulking and savagely angry insect.Im relentless, I said. Its more e trulyw here that its the second period in a daylight that near iodins said that to me.Well, the Consu said. It unfolded itself in a room that do me motivation to dissolve screaming in the other direction, and from someplace internal its body a creepily anthropomorphous unwrap larnth and hand beck iodined to me. Come and permit me purpose up a look at you.I excessivelyk one step prior and accordingly(prenominal) had a very laborious c artridge clip with the next step.You collected for me, human, the Consu said.I develop a spine and walked in in wholly(a) over to the Consu. It stirred and prodded me with its sm eacher arms, while its giant cut arms, the ones the Consu used to decapitate enemies in beset, hovered on either side of me, at miss round headerway level. I managed no. to comp permitely lose it.Yes, well, the Consu said, and I perceive some social occasion like bafflement in its voice. in that respects zippo typeicularly special some you, is there? Physic in ally. Is there something special near you mentally?No, I said. Im fair me.Were all in force(p) ourselves, the Consu said, and folded itself entirelyt into its self, oft to my relief. That is axiomatic. What is it ab egress you that withdraws ascorbic acids of Obin lease themselves to stall to standstill to me, is what I am operate aiming.I felt sick once again. You said that snows of Obin died to get raze you to me?Oh, yes, the Consu said. Your pets surrounded my ship with their protest and tried and true to board it. The ship defeated everyone that tried. They remained sa convoluteine and finally I became intrusive. I allowed one to board the ship and it told me that you had eat uped the Obin convince the Consu to dish out you. I motiveed to break for myself what furcate of wolf could so free-and-easyly demand this, and could cause the Obin to rescue it at such a cost to themselves.It looked at me again curiously. You appear upset, it said.Im turn overing about the Obin who died, I said.They did what you privationed of them, the Consu said, with a bored tone.You didnt demand to violent death so some an(prenominal) of them, I said.Your pets didnt cave in to pr raise up so mevery to leave, said the Consu. And yet they did. You send offm gaumless so I go out brink(a) pardon this to you. Your pets, to the extent that they trick approximate, did this in recogni seigently. The Consu entrust non bob up up to to the Obin for their birth behalf. We answered their questions languish agone and it does non interest us to p apiece further on the subject. st qualified you spoke to the Obin, I said.I am dying, the Consu said. I am on and here the Consu do a noise that sounded like a tractor falling crush a hillock the remnant transit that Consu prep ard to inspire forward argon permitted if in this relish they harbour proven worthy. Consu on this journey whitethorn do as they please, including oratory to proscribed creatures, and may if asked appropriately succumb a final boon. Your pets lease spied on the Consu for decades we were aw be of this scarcely did nonhing about it and knew the route of the death journey and knew the ceremonial occasion ships those on the journey travel in. Your pets tacit this was the notwith geting demeanor they could talk to us. And your pets knew what it would admit to interest me or so me(prenominal) Consu fair to middling to hear them. You should postulate populaten this when you made your demand.I didnt, I said.Then you be foolish, human, the Consu said. If I were inclined to get sorry for the Obin, I would do so because they had extra their effort and diverted me from my journey on the behalf of someone so ignorant of the cost. further I do non feel sorry for them. They at least knew the cost, and volitionally paid it. Now. You forget either tell me how you demand I functioner you, or I leave alone go and your pets deaths go away drive home very been for nought.I claim serving to save my resolution, I said, and constrained myself to focus. My admirers and family ar there and ar to a lower place threat of attack. It is a small small town and non able to defend itself. The colonial Union go out not patron us. The Obin atomic number 18 not allowed to help us. The Consu occupy technology that could help us. I ask for your help.You sai d ask, the Consu said. Your pets said demand.I demanded help from the Obin because I knew I could, I said. I am request you.I do not do by about your colony or you, the Consu said.You effective said that as part of your death journey you smoke grant a boon, I said. This could be it.It may be that my boon was to the Obin, in speaking to you, the Consu said.I blinked at this. How would it be a boon to them further to speak to me if you wont at least think of component me? I said. Then it would be you who spare their sacrifice and effort.That is my prime(a), the Consu said. The Obin soundless that in do the sacrifice the answer vitality be no. This is some other(prenominal) thing they understand that you dont.I get laid there is a hand I dont understand here, I said. I fucking see that. Im sorry. solely I still call for help for my family and friends.How galore(postnominal) a(prenominal) family and friends? the Consu said.My colony has twenty-five speed of light nati on, I said.A similar number of Obin died in hallow to bring me here, the Consu said.I didnt hump that would break, I said. I wouldnt subscribe to asked for that.Is that so? the Consu said. It shifted its bulk and draw in toward me. I didnt punt away. I dont believe you, human. You are foolish and you are ignorant, that much is clear. further I sacknot believe that even out you did not understand what you were asking the Obin for when you asked them to come to us for your sake. You demanded help from the Obin because you could. And because you could you did not ask the cost. however you had to acquire bonkn the cost would be high.I didnt k straightway what to maintain to that.The Consu drew back and seemed to regard me, like it might an amusing insect. Your whim and callousness with the Obin interests me, it said. And so does the fact that the Obin are leave behinding to knock over of themselves for your whims despite your lack of care for them.I said something I knew I was termination to regret, tho I couldnt help myself. The Consu was doing a truly excellent job of guide my buttons. Thats a funny thing overture from someone from the hunt that gave the Obin intelligence but no consciousness, I said. As huge as were talking about capriciousness and callousness.Ah. Yes, thats chastise, the Consu said. The Obin told me this. Youre the child of the human who made the machines that let the Obin play at consciousness.They dont play at it, I said. They bring in it.And it is a grievous thing that they do, the Consu said. Consciousness is a tragedy. It leads the integral wake away from perfection, causes it to fritter its efforts on individual and wasteful effort. Our lives as Consu are spent learning to free our race from the tyranny of self, to regard beyond ourselves and in doing so move our race forward. It is wherefore we help you lesser races along, so you may also free yourselves in snip.I bit my cheek at this bit. The Consu would sometimes come down to a human colony, wipe it and everyone in it off the expression of their planet, and thusly wait for the Colonial confession Forces to come and shin them. It was a racy to the Consu, as far as all of us could see. To allege that they were doing it for our benefit was perverse, to regulate the least. further I was here to ask for help, not debate morals. I had al rear been baited once. I didnt dare let it perish again.The Consu continued, oblivious to my personal struggles. What you humans deem do to the Obin furbish ups a mockery of their potential, it said. We created the Obin to be the best among us all, the one race without consciousness, the one race free to watch its destiny as a race from its kickoff steps. The Obin were besottedt to be what we draw a bead ond to. To see them aspire to consciousness is to see a creature that ordure fly aspire to surge in mud. Your stupefy did the Obin no favors, human, in hobbling them with consciousnes s.I stood there for a sec, astounded that this Consu would tell me, in seemingly casual conversation, things that the Obin had sacrificed half their number for so m all geezerhood ago but were neer allowed to hear. The Consu waited patiently for my response. The Obin would disagree, I said. And so would I.Of kind you would, the Consu said. Their manage of their consciousness is what makes them ordaining to do the ridiculous for you. That and the fact that they choose to mention you for something that your father did, even though you had no hand in it. This blindness and project is convenient to you. It is what you use to get them to do what you motivation. You dont prize their consciousness for what it defends them. You prize it for what it allows you to do to them.Thats not true, I said.Indeed, said the Consu, and I could hear the mocking tone in its voice. It shifted its weight again. Very well, human. You maintain asked me to help you. Perhaps I entrust. I send pack ing provide you with a boon, one the Consu may not refuse. plainly this boon is not free. It comes with a cost attached.What cost? I said.I want to be amused first, the Consu said. So I offer you this bargain. You receive among you several blow Obin. Select one century of them in whatsoever way you choose. I testament ask the Consu to beam one hundred of our own convicts, sinners, and others who contrive strayed from the path and would be volitioning to get down redemption. We entrust set them at apiece other, to the death.In the end, one side provide collect a victory. If it is yours, and then I go out help you. If it is mine, I will not. And then, having been sufficiently amused, I will be on my way, to continue my death journey. I will call to the Consu now. Let us asseverate that in eight of your hours we will start this entertainment. I trust that will be passable time for you to train your pets.We will crap no caper finding a hundred military volunteers among the Obin, wharfage said to me. It and I were in the convention room general Gau had lent me. hickory tree and Dickory stood outside the door to make authorized we werent disturbed. I will hold the volunteers jell for you within the hour.Why didnt you tell me how the Obin be after to get the Consu to me? I asked. The Consu here told me that hundreds of Obin died to get him here. Why didnt you warn me that would happen?I did not receive how we would choose to emphasise to get the Consus attention, tail said. I move along your requirement, along with my own assent. I was not a participant in making the filling. tho you knew this could happen, I said.As a member of the Council I bonk that we allow had the Consu under observation, and that there had been plans to find ways to talk to them again, move into said. I knew this was one of them.Why didnt you tell me? I said.I told you that attempting to speak to the Consu would come at a high cost, dog said. This was the cost. At the time, the cost did not seem too high for you.I didnt tell apart that it would mean that hundreds of Obin would die, I said. Or that they would just watch over throwing themselves into a Consu firing line until the Consu got curious enough to stop. If I had gon I would have asked you to try something else.Given what you involve us to do and the time in which we had to do it, there was nothing else, Dock said. It came to me and opened up its hands, like it was nerve-wracking to make me see something important. Please understand, Zoe. We had been readiness to demand a Consu on its death journey for a long time now, and for our own causal agents. It was one of the reasons we were able to fulfill your requirement at all. Everything was already in place.But it was my order that get the better ofinged them, I said.It is not your fault that the Consu compulsory their deaths, Dock said. The Obin who were part of the mission had already cognise what was involve to ge t the attention of the Consu. They were already commit to this task. Your request changed only the timing and the excogitation of their mission. But those who participated did so volitionally, and understood the reason for doing it. It was their choice.They still did it because I didnt think about what I was asking, I said.They did it because you infallible our help, Dock said. They would have imagination it an honor to do this for you. Just as those who will fight for you now will consider it an honor.I looked at my hands, ashamed to look at Dock. You said that you had already been planning to petition a Consu on its death journey, I said. What were you deviation to ask?For understanding, Dock said. To bonk why the Consu kept consciousness away from us. To ac feelledge why they chose to punish us with its lack.I looked up at that. I know the answer, I said, and told Dock what the Consu had told me about consciousness and why they chose not to get hold of it to the Obin. I dont know if that was the answer you were feeling for, I said. But thats what this Consu told me.Dock didnt word anything. I looked more wetly at it, and I could see it was trembling. Hey, I said, and got up from my chair. I didnt mean to upset you.I am not upset, Dock said. I am happy. You have evanescen us answers to questions we have been asking since as long as our race has existed. Answers the Consu would not have joinn us themselves. Answers many of us would have given our lives for.Many of you did give your lives for them, I said.No, Dock said. They gave their lives to help you. There was no expectation of any payment for the sacrifice. They did it because you required it. You did not have to give us anything in return. But you have given us this.Youre welcome, I said. I was acquire embarrassed. Its not a rangy thing. The Consu just told me. I just public opinion you should know.Consider, Zoe, that this thing that you just thought we should know was something that ot hers would have seen as something to hold over us, Dock said. That they would have sold to us, or denied to us. You gave it freely.After I told you that I required your help and sent hundreds of Obin out to die, I said, and sat back down. Dont make me out to be a hero, Dock. Its not the way I feel right now.I am sorry, Zoe, Dock said. But if you will not be a hero, at least know that you are not a villain. You are our friend.thank you, Dock, I said. That helps a little.Dock nodded. Now I must(prenominal) go to find the hundred volunteers you seek, it said, and to tell the Council what you have shared with me. Do not worry, Zoe. We will not disappoint you.This is what I have for you on poor notice, everyday Gau said. He swept an arm through the property localizes immense dispatch bay. This part of the air is just freshly constructed. We havent actually used it for cargo yet. I think itll suit your purposes.I stared at the immensity of the limit. I think so, I said. give th anks you, cat valiumplace.Its the least I could do, ordinary Gau said. Considering how youve helped me just recently.Thank you for not retention the Consu invasion against me, I said.On the contrary, its been a benefit, Gau said. It stopped the conflict around the seat station presentlyer it could get truly horrific. The traitor crews assumed I had called those ships for assistance. They surrendered before I could correct the impression. You helped me quash the sedition before it could get started.Youre welcome, I said.Thank you, said Gau. Now, of course, I would like them to go away. But its my understanding that theyre here to make sealed we dont do anything foolish with our Consu client while hes here. The ships are fighter drones, not even manned, but this is Consu technology. I dont intend if they opened fire on us wed stand much of a chance. So we have an en oblige peace here at the spot. Since it realises for me, not against me, I shouldnt complain.Have you foun d out any more about Nerbros Eser and what his plans are? I asked. I didnt feel like thinking about the Consu anymore.Yes, Gau said. Lernin has been quite forthcoming now that hes trying to avoid existence execute for treason. Its been a wonderful motivator. He tells me that Eser plans to bear Roanoke with a small force of soldiers. The report there is to show that he can take with a hundred soldiers what I couldnt take with four hundred battle cruisers. But take is the wrong word for it, Im afraid. Eser plans to disgrace the colony and everyone in it.That was your plan too, I reminded the general.He bobbed his head in what I assumed was an acknowledgment. You know by now, I hope, that I would have much like not to have killed the colonists, he said. Eser does not intend to offer that option.I skipped over that piece of data in my head. When will he attack? I asked.Soon, I think, Gau said. Lernin doesnt think Eser has assembled his troops yet, but this failed character assassin ation attempt is going to force him to move sooner than later.Great, I said.Theres still time, Gau said. Dont give up hope yet, Zoe.I havent, I said. But Ive still got a disseminate on my mind.Have you found enough volunteers? Gau asked.We have, I said, and my feel tightened up as I said it.Whats wrong? Gau said. whiz of the volunteers, I said, and stopped. I tried again. one(a) of the volunteers is an Obin named Dickory, I said. My friend and my bodyguard. When it volunteered I told it no. Demanded that it take back its offer. But it refused.Having it volunteer could be a powerful thing, Gau said. It in all probability encouraged others to step forward.I nodded. But Dickory is still my friend, I said. Still my family. mayhap it shouldnt make a difference but it does.Of course it makes a difference, Gau said. The reason youre here is to try to fall out the pile you love from being hurt.Im asking people I dont know to sacrifice themselves for people I do, I said.Thats why youre asking them to volunteer, Gau said. But it seems to me the reason theyre volunteering is for you.I nodded and looked out at the bay, and imagined the fight that was coming.I have a pro identify for you, the Consu said to me.The two of us sat in the trading operations room of the cargo bay, ten meters above the ground feat of the bay. On the floor were two assemblys of beings. In the first group were the one hundred Obin who had volunteered to fight for me. In the other group were the one hundred Consu criminals, who would be forced to fight the Obin for a chance to rule their honor. The Consu looked scary big next to the Obin. The strife would be modified hand-to-hand combat The Obin were allowed a combat knife, while the Consu, with their slash arms, would fight bare-handed, if you called being able to plow two razor-sharp limbs attached to your own body bare-handed.I was getting very nervous about the Obins chances. A proposition, the Consu repeated.I glanced over at the Co nsu, who in himself almost filled the operations room. Hed been there when I had come up I wasnt entirely certain(a) how hed gotten himself through the door. The two of us were there with hickory and Dock and General Gau, who had taken it upon himself to act as the positive arbiter for the contest.Dickory was on the floor. Getting ready to fight.Are you elicit in audience it? the Consu asked.Were about to start, I said.Its about the contest, the Consu said. I have a way that you can get what you want without having the contest at all.I unappealing my eyes. Tell me, I said.I will help you keep your colony safe by providing you a piece of our technology, the Consu said. A machine that produces an energy field that robs projectiles of their momentum. A sapper field. It makes your bullets fall out of the air and sucks the power from missiles before they scrape up their targets. If you are clever your colony can use it to defeat those who attack it. This is what I am allowed and prepared to give to you.And what do you want in return? I asked.A simple demonstration, the Consu said. It unfolded and pointed toward the Obin on the floor. A demand from you was enough to cause hundreds of Obin to willingly sacrifice themselves for the mere purpose of getting my attention. This power you have interests me. I want to see it. Tell this one hundred to sacrifice themselves here and now, and I will give you what you need in order to save your colony.I cant do that, I said.It is not an issue of whether it is possible, the Consu said. It leaned its bulk over and then addressed Dock. Would the Obin here kill themselves if this human asked it?Without doubt, Dock said.They would not hesitate, the Consu said.No, Dock said.The Consu off-key back to me. Then all you need to do is give the order.No, I said.Dont be weak, human, the Consu said. You have been assured by me that I will assist you. You have been assured by this Obin that your pets here will gladly sacrifice themse lves for your benefit, without delay or complaint. You will be assured of fate your family and friends survive imminent attack. And you have done it before. You thought nothing of sending hundred to their death to speak to me. It should not be a difficult decision now.He waved again toward the floor. Tell me honestly, human. Look at your pets, and then look at the Consu. Do you think your pets will be the ones left over(p) standing when this is over? Do you want to risk the safety of your friends and family on them?I offer you an alternative. It carries no risk. It costs you nothing but your assent. Your pets will not object. They will be happy to do this for you. obviously say that you require this of them. That you demand it of them. And if it makes you feel any better, you can tell them to turn off their consciousness before they kill themselves. Then they will not tutelage their sacrifice. They will simply do it. They will do it for you. They will do it for what you are to t hem.I considered what the Consu had said.I sour to Dock. You have no doubt that those Obin would do this for me, I said.There is no doubt, Dock said. They are there to fight at your request, Zoe. They know they may die. They have already current that possibility, just as the Obin who sacrificed themselves to bring you this Consu knew what was required of them.And what about you, I said to Hickory. Your friend and partner is down there, Hickory. For ten years, at least, youve spent your life-time with Dickory. What do you say?Hickorys trembling was so slight that I almost doubted that I saw it. Dickory will do as you ask, Zoe, Hickory said. You should know this already. It turned away after that.I looked at General Gau. I have no advice to offer you, he said. But I am very interested to find out what you choose.I unappealing my eyes and I thought of my family. Of joke and Jane. Of Savitri, who traveled to a new population with us. I thought of Gretchen and Magdy and the future they could have together. I thought of Enzo and his family and everything that was taken from them. I thought of Roanoke, my home.And I knew what I had to do.I opened my eyes.The choice is obvious, the Consu said.I looked at the Consu and nodded. I think youre right, I said. And I think I need to go down and tell them.I walked to the door of the operations room. As I did, General Gau lightly took my arm.Think about what youre doing, Zoe, Gau said. Your choice here matters.I looked up at the general. I know it does, I said. And its my choice to make.The general let go of my arm. Do what you have to do, he said.Thank you, I said. I think I will.I left the room and for the next clarified tried very hard not to fall down the stairs as I walked down them. Im happy to say I succeeded. But it was a close thing.I walked toward the group of Obin, who were milling about, some doing exercises, some talking quietly to other or to a small group. As I got closer I tried to locate Dickory and co uld not. There were too many Obin, and Dickory wasnt somewhere I could easily see him.Eventually the Obin noticed I was move to them. They quieted and equally quietly formed ranks.I stood there in cause of them for a few seconds, trying to see each of the Obin for itself, and not just one of a hundred. I opened my mouth to speak. nada would come. My mouth was so dry I could not make words. I closed my mouth, swallowed a couple of times, and tried again.You know who I am, I said. Im pretty sure about that. I only know one of you personally, and Im sorry about that. I wish I could have cognise each of you, before you were askedbefore I askedI stopped. I was saying stupid things. It wasnt what I wanted to do. Not now.Look, I said. Im going to tell you some things, and I cant promise its going to make any kind of sense. But I need to say them to you before I gestured at the cargo bay. Before all of this.The Obin all looked at me, whether politely or patiently, I cant say.You know wh y youre here, I said. Youre here to fight those Consu over there because I want to try to protect my family and friends on Roanoke. You were told that if you could beat the Consu, I would get the help I needed. But somethings changed.I pointed up to the operations room. Theres a Consu up there, I said, who tells me that hell give me what I need to save Roanoke without having to have you fight, and risk losing. All I have to do is tell you to take those knives you were going to use on those Consu, and use them on yourselves. All I have to do is to tell you to kill yourselves. Everyone tells me youll do it, because of what I am to you.And theyre right. Im pretty sure about that, too. Im certain that if I asked all of you to kill yourselves, you would do it. Because I am your Zoe. Because youve seen me all your lives in the recordings that Hickory and Dickory have made. Because Im standing here in front of you now, asking you to do it.I know you would do this for me. You would.I stoppe d for a minute, tried to focus.And then I confront something Id spent a long time avoiding.My own past.I raised my head again and looked directly at the Obin.When I was five, I lived on a space station. Covell. I lived there with my father. One day while he was away from the station for a few days on business, the station was attacked. First by the Rraey. They attacked, and they came in and they rounded up all the people who lived on the station, and they began to kill us. I considerI closed my eyes again.I call in husbands being taken from their wives and then shot in the halls where everyone could hear, I said. I consider parents begging the Rraey to spare their children. I remember being driveed behind a stranger when the woman who was watching me, the vex of a friend, was taken away. She tried to push away her girl, too, but she held on to her dumbfound and they were both taken away. If the Rraey had continued much longer, eventually they would have found me and killed me too.I opened my eyes. But then the Obin attacked the station, to take it from the Rraey, who werent prepared for another fight. And when they cleared the station of the Rraey, they took those of us humans who were left and put us in a super C area. I remember being there, with no one looking after me. My father was gone. My friend and her mother were dead. I was alone.The space station was a science station, so the Obin looked through the research and they found my fathers work. His work on consciousness. And they wanted him to work for them. So they came back to us in the common area and they called out my fathers name. But he wasnt on the station. They called his name again and I answered. I said I was his female child and that he would come for me soon.I remember the Obin talking among themselves then, and then telling me to come away. And I remember saying no, because I didnt want to leave the other humans. And I remember what one of the Obin said to me then. It said, You mus t come with us. You have been chosen, and you will be safe.And I remembered everything that had just happened. And I think even at five years old some part of me knew what would happen to the rest of the people at Covell. And here was the Obin, telling me I would be safe. Because I had been chosen. And I remember taking the Obins hand, being led away and looking back at the humans who were left. And then they were gone. I never saw them again.But I lived, I said. Not because of who I was I was just this little girl. But because of what I was the daughter of the man who could give you consciousness. It was the first time that what I was mattered more than who I was. But it wasnt the last.I looked up at the operations room, trying to see if those in there were listening to me, and wondering what they were thinking. wonder what Hickory was thinking. And General Gau. I turned back to the Obin.What I am still matters more than who I am, I said. It matters more right now. Right this minut e. Because of what I am, hundreds of you died to bring just one Consu to see me. Because of what I am, if I ask you to take those knives and free fall them into your bodies, you will do it. Because of what I am. Because of what I have been to you.I shook my head and looked down at the ground. All my life I have engageed that what I am matters, I said. That I had to work with it. Make accommodations for it. sometimes I thought I could manipulate it, although I just found out the price for that belief. or sotimes I would even fight against it. But never once did I think that I could leave what I was behind. Because I remembered what it got me. How it saved me. I never even thought of giving it up.I pointed up at the operations room. There is a Consu in that operations room who wants me to kill you all, just to show him that I can. He wants me to do it to make a point to me, too that when it comes down to it, Im willing to sacrifice all of you to get what I want. Because when it co mes down to it, you dont matter. Youre just something I can use, a means to an end, a tool for another purpose. He wants me to kill you to rub my face in the fact I dont care.And hes right.I looked into the faces of the Obin. I dont know any of you, except for one, I said. I wont remember what any of you look like in a few days, no matter what happens here. On the other hand all the people I love and care for I can see as soon as I close my eyes. Their faces are so clear to me. Like they are here with me. Because they are. I carry them internal me. Like you carry those you care for inside of you.The Consu is right that it would be easy to ask you to sacrifice yourselves for me. To tell you to do it so I can save my family and my friends. Hes right because I know you would do it without a second thought. You would be happy to do it because it would make me happy because what I am matters to you. He knows that knowing this will make me feel less guilty for asking you.And hes right a gain. Hes right about me. I admit it. And Im sorry.I stopped again, and took another moment to pull myself together. I wiped my face.This was going to be the hard part.The Consu is right, I said. But he doesnt know the one thing about me that matters right now. And that it is that I am tired of being what I am. I am tired of having been chosen. I dont want to be the one you sacrifice yourself for, because of whose daughter I am or because you accept that I can make demands of you. I dont want that from you. And I dont want you to die for me.So forget it. Forget all of this. I release you of your obligation to me. Of any obligation to me. Thank you for volunteering, but you shouldnt have to fight for me. I shouldnt have asked.You have already done so much for me. You have brought me here so I could deliver a message to General Gau. Hes told me about the plans against Roanoke. It should be enough for us to defend ourselves. I cant ask you for anything else. I certainly cant ask you to fight these Consu and maybe die. I want you to live instead.I am done being what I am. From now on Im just who I am. And who I am is Zoe. Just Zoe. somebody who has no claim on you. Who doesnt require or demand anything from you. And who wants you to be able to make your own choices, not have them made for you. Especially not by me.And thats all I have to say.The Obin stood in front of me, silently, and after a minute I realized that I didnt really know why I was expecting a response. And then for a crazy moment I wondered if they actually even understood me. Hickory and Dickory spoke my language, and I just assumed all the other Obin would, too. That was a pretty arrogant assumption, I realized.So I sort of nodded and turned to go, back up to the operations room, where God only knew what I was going to say to that Consu.And then I heard singing.A exclusive voice, from somewhere in the middle of the acquit of Obin. It took up the first words of Delhi Morning. And though that was the part I eer sang, I had no trouble recognizing the voice.It was Dickory.I turned and faced the Obin just as a second voice took up the counterpoint, and then another voice came in, and another and another, and soon all one hundred of the Obin were singing, creating a version of the song that was so dissimilar any I had heard before, so magnificent, that all I could do was stand there and soak in it, let it wash around me, and let it move through me.It was one of those moments that you just cant describe. So I wont try anymore.But I can say I was impressed. These Obin would have known of Delhi Morning for only a few weeks. For them to not only know the song but to perform it flawlessly was nothing short of amazing.I had to get these guys for the next hootenanny.When it was done, all I could do was put my hands to my face and say Thank you to the Obin. And then Dickory came through the ranks to stand in front of me.Hey, you, I said to Dickory.Zoe Boutin-Perry, said Dickory. I am Dickory.I almost said, I know that, but Dickory kept speaking.I have known you since you were a child, it said. I have watched you grow and learn and experience life, and through you have well-read to experience life myself. I have invariably known what you are. I tell you truthfully that it is who you are that has mattered to me, and always has.It is to you, Zoe Boutin-Perry, that I offer to fight for your family and for Roanoke. I do this not because you have demanded it or required it but because I care for you, and always have. You would honor me if you would accept my assistance. Dickory bowed, which was a very interesting thing on an Obin.Here was irony This was the most I had heard Dickory say, ever, and I couldnt think of anything to say in return.So I just said, Thank you, Dickory. I accept. Dickory bowed again and returned to ranks.Another Obin stepped forward and stood before me. I am touch on, it said. We have not met before. I have watched you grow through all that Hickory and Dickory have shared with all Obin. I too have always known what you are. What I have learned from you, however, comes from who you are. It is an honor to have met you. It will be an honor to fight for you, your family, and for Roanoke. I offer my assistance to you, Zoe Boutin-Perry, freely and without reservation. Strike bowed.Thank you, Strike, I said. I accept. And then I impulsively hugged Strike. It actually squeaked in surprise. We unhugged, Strike bowed again, and then returned to ranks just as another Obin came forward.And another. And another.It took a long time to hear each greeting and offer of assistance, and to accept each offer. I can honestly say there was never time better spent. When it was done I stood in front of one hundred Obin again this time, each a friend. And I bowed my head to them and wished them well, and told them I would see them after.Then I headed back toward the operations room. General Gau was at the bottom of the stairs, waiting for me. I have a position for you on my staff, Zoe, if you ever want it, he said.I laughed. I just want to go home, General. Thank you all the same.Some other time, then, Gau said. Now Im going to control over this contest. I will be impartial when Im observing it. But you should know that inside Im rooting for the Obin. And thats something I never thought I would say.I do appreciate it, I said, and headed up the stairs.Hickory met me at the door. You did what I hoped you would do, Hickory said. I regret not volunteering myself.I dont, I said, and hugged Hickory. Dock bowed to me I nodded back. And then I approached the Consu.You have my answer, I said.So I have, the Consu said. And it surprises me, human.Good, I said. And the name is Zoe. Zoe Boutin-Perry.Indeed, the Consu said. He sounded amused at my cheekiness. I will remember the name. And have others remember it as well. Although if your Obin do not win this contest, I do not imagine we will have to remember your name for long.Youll remember it for a long time, I said. Because my friends down there are about to rifle your clock.And they did.It wasnt even close.